Drained

It's only Thursday. I have to keep reminding myself, because I keep thinking it's Friday today. That means tomorrow is going to be rough too. I feel like I have pretty much given everything I've got to everything, and now, I'm running on empty. I'm so tired, because I choose not to go to bed when I'm so tired. It gets to the point that I'm too tired to go to bed - and that's a bad sign. I have sort of gotten used to having Josh around a little more, which makes it so hard to want to go to bed instead of just falling asleep on the couch and waiting for him to get home. We both had work off (at night) 2 nights in a row 2 weeks ago, and then Josh had his root canal stuff, so he's been home more, and Tuesdays, he goes in early and gets off early. I've just gotten used to having him around at night, which is dangerous for my sleep habits. Last night I was laying down feeling so much more lonely than usual. I have sort of accepted/gotten over the fact that he is gone so much at night, but last night was particularly hard. So, instead of going to bed, I fell asleep on the couch to "wait up" for him. Then we went to bed at 2:00 a.m., and I was back up at 5:00 to go to the gym. Obviously, I got more than 3 hours of sleep, but it wasn't restful, and I'm soooooo drained. I got home from the gym today and just laid down on the floor and stayed there for about 15 minutes.

I felt like I was possibly getting sick yesterday, but I'm feeling a little better today. I just don't want to take any more time off work.

I'm just feeling overwhelmed. Probably just because I'm so dang tired, and I can't process or deal with things properly when I'm this run down.

I'm so tired, I don't even want to deal with the things I have to do today.