I Wish...

I had $500 because I would buy this:

OR

... I wish for it to be FREE!
Then I would tickle these pretty little ivories, in my own home.

The Refusal

I tried my hardest to get work off tonight (at The Roof) but was unsuccessful. It was a CRAZY night for sure! Sheesh! Of course, I have a story...

I'm a little bit of a perfectionist and really want to be good at my job, and want to know it well enough to be able to be proactive about getting things done. I get really shaken when I make a mistake, and some of the managers are unforgiving--sort of. Once you mess something up, you don't get to do it again for awhile. Back to the story... when I make a mistake, I get really rattled. Whether it is a little teeny tiny mistake, or a GIANT mistake, I get riled up and I can't quite shake it, so I get progressively worse every minute. I start making even more stupid mistakes, and then I am a total wreck and it takes me awhile to calm back down. I would like to report that tonight, I didn't let it rattle me, and I didn't allow myself to be as paranoid so I didn't make the mistakes in the first place. 

Summary: 

Had to work, work was crazy, managers are unforgiving, I make stupid mistakes, I refuse to get frazzled. 

WORK=CRAZY=UNFORGIVING=STUPID MISTAKES=NOT FRAZZLED

Have Some Words

Dearest Mr. H--

I think it is high time we have some words. More than just what can be expressed between our daily sms conversations, and our rushed "I Love Yous" on the phone as we run from place to place. So, here are my words for you, and some updates on what I've been doing while you've been working so hard--busy earning awesome grades and perfect scores in Math. Not too shabby on that Music Final either...smart AND sexy...whew! No idea how lucky I really am when we said our "yes"es nearly 3 years ago. 

On we go, to the words, the words I wish I were speaking instead of drumming out on the computer...

You should be so proud of me. I actually did my hair. I mean, I used product, and I curled it. CURLED it. Do you understand that involves plugging in a curling iron, waiting for it to heat up, then sectioning off my hair to curl in shifts??? PLUS, I applied that red lipstick you seemed so pleased I was pouting. The reason I'm presenting this picture is because I wished you were with me tonight at the Christmas Dinner, and also, because upon further inspection, I realized that I really am on the short side of life...I don't even come to the top of the bookshelf, and for the first time in years, I actually felt short. Then I heartily chuckled that my hair (so sculpted) was stuck to the lipstick. Thought you would get a laugh out of that. Anyway, this is what I looked like at the party tonight. Bet you wish you could have come...I did!

After taking some pictures, I found some I forgot we had taken this weekend at Counters. Look how cute you are in this picture--now THAT'S a real smile...

So this is when I ate Sashimi at Benihana's. That's what happens when you don't feed me. I end up eating raw fish. I was nervous, but so brave. You would have been proud my fearless love!

So one night, I came home and made this for dinner and thought it looked so good, I would take a picture. So I did, and now I wish I hadn't, because I would like to eat that, but...no more tomatoes or avocados. (Sorry I haven't been able to get to costco yet, I haven't been able to get milk for a couple of days, so hopefully I will make it there before Saturday. Work is crazy lately! Cuh-RAY-zy!)
Remember this little beauty? There was a picture that was centered, but you looked goofy, so I picked the one that was left of center--you know--kind of like how I am sometimes...you don't look like you detest me quite so much in this one. 
Heidi's birthday at CPK. Aaaahhh, I dream of the ALT pizza I had that night. *sigh* Look how cute T and H are! Trent looks so in love. Sometimes, I see you look at me that way. But only when you think I'm not paying attention (or if you are intentionally pulling a puppy dog face because you want me to do something--like hunt down your chapstick). 
                                                               Happy Birthday Heidi!
K and H chillin, well, I guess I was chillin by myself because I didn't take a coat. You tried to get me to wear yours, but I really didn't need it--until the way back! It really wasn't that bad. That was a great night. I love it when we get to hang out, especially with Trent and Heidi. You are so much fun with them. This smile is all for you babe!

I just wanted to remind you of the GIANT bruise I had on my leg for 2 weeks. Look how cool I am. The picture was kinda lame, because you can't tell it's a couch in the back of a truck, a LEATHER couch in the back of the truck. I'm pretty sure my leg still remembers that bruise. There is a shadow of pain that reminds me of you, because you don't know how to help a lady out of a truck. But that's okay, I don't expect you to have to do that very often, or ever again, I've never seen a bruise that big in my life!

                                          Awww, your cute mug. I miss your little mug! 

Okay, so remember how I tried to take a picture of myself like 987872376827364876 million times in the car, but I couldn't keep my eyes open?? Every time I tried to take a picture, I sneezed and I couldn't keep my eyes open, and I couldn't stop laughing either. ha ha ha. Don't you miss my little mug...? I miss yours. 

Congrats on your finals buddy, I love you lots, and I'll talk to you this weekend. If I don't sleep through it. 

                                               Kisses!!!

It Was A Great Weekend

because:

I hung out with family
Had my first experience at the Cheesecake Factory
There was talk of a snow storm
Josh told me he already knows what my homemade present will be
Bought Christmas Presents ...


...but mostly because I threw my head back and laughed carelessly at least 35 times!

What are you doing for Christmas? I'll tell you what I'm doing...losing weight with diet cake! There is a contest going on for anyone who wants to join. So far I think I saw about 30 people (including my chubby self) signed up for the contest. Today is the last day to join. You will have to enter by 11:59 p.m. PST. You have to post your weight in the comments section, unless of course you're a woss--then you can email it to them to keep your weight a secret. I refuse to gain any weight this holiday season, and I intend to keep losing. There are prizes involved for the biggest loser. Stop by and read the rules, and then go ahead and sign up. I already have. What better motivation is there to lose it, than to post your weight for all to see, and weekly re-post to show how you're dropping the pounds??? They do post daily about things that trip them up in their weight loss endeavors, as well as things that are making them successful. Drop by and at least check it out. Happy Running!

Thanks Diet Cake, for the motivation to get even more serious about it!